Meghan recounted that she originally felt "ashamed" to tell her husband, Prince Harry, but she was aware that to not tell her husband would put her in a vulnerable position. "I was ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry.
But I knew that if I didn't say it – then I would do it. I just didn't want to be alive anymore. That was clear and real and frightening and constant thought," Meghan revealed.