Clare Crawley is opening up about a painful and dark moment from her past. The 39-year-old upcoming Bachelorette lead appeared on the latest episode of the Bachelor Happy Hour podcast and revealed she was in a “really abusive” relationship just before venturing into reality TV for the first time via Juan Pablo Galavis‘ season of The Bachelor in 2014. Related: Nick Viall Opens Up About Getting Body-Shamed Over His Shirtless Selfie It might be quite a while before we ever see Clare’s journey to find love play out on ABC due to production delays spurred on by the coronavirus pandemic — but in the meantime, she’s inviting fans to get to know her on a deeper level.