Have you ever felt like fat and food were your enemies? Like everything would be better if you could just lose weight—and eat whatever you want without consequence?
I felt that way for much of my childhood and teens, when unresolved trauma and low self-esteem led to a long battle with food and my body.
I struggled with bulimia for over a decade, starting at twelve. And though I technically “recovered” in my early twenties, I spent years after trapped in rigid food rules and a lingering fear of eating the “wrong” thing.
It wasn’t until my thirties that I finally felt free with food and truly comfortable in my own skin. So many of us struggle with food in ways that profoundly affect our lives. We eat to numb, then restrict to “make up” for it.
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