TRIGGER WARNING: This post references rape and suicide attempts, which might be distressing for some readers. “Our lives only improve when we are willing to take chances, and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.” ~Walter Anderson This was my third psychiatric hospitalization after my suicide attempts.
On this visit, something shifted. All I knew at that moment was, for the first time, I wasn’t in a hurry to leave. There was no window or clock.
Just blank, pale walls I’d been staring at for twenty-one days. I lay there, shattered and broken in a way that felt beyond repair.
It shouldn’t hurt this much just to be alive. Then I heard it—a whisper from deep inside me. It was little Jennifer, saying, “There has to be more to my life than this.” I didn’t recognize this voice yet as my inner child, but that whisper marked the beginning of my healing.
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