In my first year of college, I found myself with a brand new problem: I was totally unable to write an essay.My professor had given us clear instructions.
I was passionate about (read: hyperfixated on) the subject. I’d been researching for days. But I couldn’t seem to get started — there was too much I wanted to say and, horror of horrors, I couldn’t even use the just-start-rambling tactic that had carried me through high school.
The topic was too important, the stakes were too high, and every time I started to write, it came out wrong.Like many with ADHD, I’m an all-or-nothing type.
I haven’t yet found the magic key that lets me put, say, 45% effort into something. I have to give 100% perfection or it’s simply not worth doing at all.All the same time, in high school, even when I’d make a bulleted outline for an essay and try to follow it, I’d get stuck, delete the outline in frustration, abandon the draft entirely, and write the whole essay in one go.