“If you don’t give your mind and body a break, you’ll break. Stop pushing yourself through pain and exhaustion and take care of your needs.” Lori Deschene For forty-five minutes, I lay on my yoga mat in child’s pose, unable to move.
The exhaustion in my body felt like a thousand kilos, and the ache of failure pricked my eyes with tears. Despite all my early morning runs, after-work bootcamps, and restricted meals, my body did not look like the bikini models I saw on Instagram.
Despite all my energy, efforts, and attention, my romantic relationship had fallen apart. No matter what I did or how hard I tried, he didn’t love me anymore, and I couldn’t understand what I had done wrong.
Despite my long working hours and , my boss didn’t recognize me, and I had to face the fact that I just wasn’t the talented designer I was trying so hard to be. As I wallowed in my failure and the heartbreak of ‘not enough,’ I felt my body pleading with me. “Why don’t you love me?” she asked. “Why do you push me so hard?